Headed to the brink and that’s ok.

i knew i was healing when i was willing to be honest with myself about how i sabotage my joy without judging myself. — Yasmine Cheyenne

Have you ever felt like you would never make it past a difficult situation you were going through? And that just led to fear and anxiety which made you feel worse and almost incapable of handling what was in front of you? It was almost like you already sealed your fate in this imaginary envelope and kept re-sealing it with every thought that put you deeper into the mind state of a victim. This is something I have been through multiple times in my life and I used to focus more on the problem than on the avenues that might get me through it and out to see the other side. In these instances I usually didn’t know where money was coming for the next bill or was experiencing hardship in my personal relationships. All of these were different forms of a problem. I didn’t like the way I was holding space for what seemed to be drowning me and it wasn’t until I hit rock bottom and broke that I realized my thinking was the issue. It begs the question why are so many of us afraid of our problems. Most of the anxiety, worry, or fear I was experiencing was coming from the story I was telling myself about what I was facing. I would corner myself in with beliefs like “I will never make it through this” or “this isn’t how it should be.” Both of those beliefs worked to…